So its coming to the end of the year and honestly this is the first year in a long time where I can say It has actually flew. It is also the first year since I was 17 where I was single for the whole. This year was really just about me and figuring out what I wanted. Im not sure if I still truely know (but who does I suppose) but I definately learned alot.
My goals last year were -
- Learn to Drive
- Get my own car
- Build my Blog & YouTube Channel
- To get healthier
And Im happy to report I accomplished them all!! Well for the most part anyway! I learned to drive and realised I loved it! I really enjoy driving! I recently bought a car but currently it is at my parents house and hopefully in the new year when the weather gets better I will be driving around like a boss haha.
I continue to work hard at my blog every now and then I have to cool off but they are for personal reasons but I really love my blog and I am very proud of it! I have started my YouTube channel and next year I plan to make it bigger and better than ever! I love being a part of the beauty blogger world and getting the chance to interact with all of YOU! really I do and I would also like to take this opportunity to thank YOU! yes you! without you I would be just writing for myself and although I enjoy that too its nice when you know that other people are enjoying your hard work and make it all seem worth while!!
I have definately got healthier this year! I went to the gym... yes I have not been the most regular of clients but the first step is always the hardest and I took it!! And I dare all of you to do the same!!
This was also another year of learning more and dealing with my anxiety and also talking about it. Anxiety is a scary thing. You think you are going crazy. You are not but its not always easy to see it. I have been outraged by comments I have read not so long ago about how people who claim to have anxiety or any other mental illness are faking it and just to gain publicity or doing it be like Zoella, Tanya Burr or Sam Chapman but let me tell you right here right now, No girl (or guy for that matter) in their right mind would pretend to have it if they didnt. Now Im not say that there is absolutely no one that does (they should be ashamed of themselves) but for most people It is a horrible crippling debilitating illness that is not even visible to the outside world. I wish I could say that I didnt suffer from it but I do so all I can sometimes is take one day at a time and use it to grow as a person. what else can I do. I refuse to let it take over my life (easier said than done though) Also I would like to add that I think that it is more likely that since YouTube personalities started to speak out about it then it made more people comfortable about taking about their stories, which personally I think is a great thing #stompoutstigma!! I remember when I first started dealing with it I was convinced I was going crazy! Then I remember reading Zoellas story and Sams and Tanyas and suddenly I started to feel better. Obviously it didnt make the problem go away but I was comforted in the knowledge that I was not alone! People I respected and admired went through this too. So I think its a wonderful that these people are speaking out and as someone who knows what its like to write about not being perfect to a vast audience to be judged and critised I thinks its awful for them to then recieve comments about how they are faking it to be like someone else!! horrible!! anyway this got abit ranty haha. I guess what Im trying to say is that I wish it would go away most of the time but I have learned to accept it and grow from it more and more.
On reflection it has been a weird year but on the whole a good one and hopefully 2015 will bring bigger and better things!!
Thank you again for joining me from the begining of my journey as a Blogger and YouTuber. I am by no means a pro yet but Im definately enjoying the ride!!
I wish you all the Happiest of New Years and an Amazing 2015!
I will see you all back here in 2015!!
Thank you for reading